|Persephone. A new direction?|
We’ve headed into the final round of my charity auction (for now), and I’ve got to say it’s been a roller coaster of emotion for me! I’ve said goodbye to so many of my old pieces in the past couple of weeks, some of which sold for only a dollar. I’ve made my peace with this, however, as I’d much rather see these pieces go to homes that will appreciate them, rather than sit in my basement gathering dust. GONE, they are, and now I feel a weight lifted knowing that this old work is not present for me to rely on anymore as the base of my body of work.
I feel like having my old work around encouraged me to be less productive. It’s easy to get comfortable when certain pieces have met with some success. Now that they’re gone, I feel an even greater push to be productive to fill that hole in my closet. I’d ideally like to be able to produce at least one fully thought out and detailed piece a month, but it just hasn’t happened for me for one reason or another.
It’s funny to think that my work will be different now, if Persephone is a portent of things to come. I’m afraid of not being able to present a cohesive body of work anymore since my old work still makes up the majority of the prints I sell. As such, I’ve been slowly retiring older prints (many which I already have in the CLEARANCE section of my shop) and gradually re-branding myself with newer work more pertinent to the industries I’m aiming for. There is such a massive undertaking of creating completely new bodies of work ahead of me! I have to wonder if most artists go through this shedding of skin? This metamorphosis of imagery, style, and media? Surely, I am not the only one who shifts their colors throughout their career? I wonder if we just never see the older work of the pros we know, so we always assume they knew what they were doing from the get-go.
On that note, I’ve been thinking long and hard about just what industry it is I’d like to target right now, with the good advice from friends in said industries and art communities to guide my way. The hard facts are that my work and fundamental skills need to be more polished to get into concept art, which is my ultimate goal. Neither do I currently have the ability to relocate to the places where I’ll find those kinds of jobs with my significant other’s career in the mix as well. His career takes priority right now because I am simply not ready to enter into the field I’d like to pursue, while he has advanced to the point in his field that he is ready to enter the next level.
This is one of the many challenges of having romantic relationships as an artist. Moving can be difficult when you have to prioritize one person over the other to make sure your bills are paid, while you also have to be honest to yourself about what your potential is at the given time. By the same token, we are so incredibly lucky to be able to advance together and provide constant support for one another. While one person is building strength, another can man the wheel.
However, all is not lost, as there are other art fields which seem suiting for me. Playing card art, book covers, and interior art for rpgs have caught my eye, since they all tie in to my favorite subject matter (fantasy, scifi, and character-driven works) and, for the most part, allow you to work remotely. It’s a way to suit my needs and develop my skills while still being in an industry I can be passionate about!
I’m excited about this course correction of mine and have been brainstorming on a list of subjects I’d like to depict in a targeted portfolio for each. I shall have to ramble on what I’m thinking of doing later, however, because this blog entry is already long enough!
Thanks to all of you who drop words of support here and in other online communities. I feel like a flag in the wind sometimes with no control over where life is taking me. Words of encouragement can mean so much to build the kind of positive attitude I need to reach my goals. I started this blog to document a journey from amateur to professional and I feel like I’m finally on a course that’s not as unrealistic as it used to be. I have goals, steps, and everything I need to get there. Now it is up to the art to pave the way!
Let the productivity begin!
I think it is completely normal to change any aspect of our lives. It entails growth and growth is never ever a bad trait.
Think about it: if we never ever changed we wouldn’t be the adults we are right now. We’d be children constantly and forever.
I know I’ve change on so many different levels throught the years, and overall I believe for the better.
“Panta Rei” wrote Euricledes thousands of years ago. “Everything Flows”, he grasped the idea that everything constantly changes.
I’ve embraced my new artistic change. My love for worn and old in my previous art has now become a love for all things old, from jewelry parts to old chairs that I love to reburbish.
This is a great change for me and I can’t wait what kind of new paintings come out of it.
Don’t look over your shoulder too many times Angela, I believe in you and what you have done and are doing is great!
Keep being inspired now. Live in the present, incorporate your history, but let new development unfolds. Don’t be afraid: creativity is both learned and innate. You will do great! Can’t wait to see new creations!
Thanks, Ale! It’s always inspiring to know I have such great friends at my side who believe in me, even when I stumble or have been lost a little while without the right direction. Hope we can get together sometime for some arty days!
I also apologize for the multiple grammar mistakes…I feel my computer is not registering all the words…it’s fairly slow. I promise I’m not illiterate!